Thursday, January 22, 2015

Race Day Blessings

I'm just a few days behind in posting the race results from Sunday because we took a short family vacation to the happiest place on earth... Disneyland.

Just like the MVP of the winning super bowl team, I finished the half marathon and then we took off for the trip of a lifetime.  Okay maybe it wasn't like that.  While I'm definitely not any sort of MVP, I can tell you it was the trip of a lifetime. More to come on that in a day or so!

Race morning started bright and early (at 4:50 am), enough time to eat breakfast, let it settle, stretch out a few nervous butterflies and arrive at the course early enough to get ready.

With over 11,000 people running the half plus the runners participating in the 10K (which also started in the same place), I asked Dad to drop me off.  So we loaded up the family a few minutes before 6 and headed to Tempe.

Dad dropped me off and I walked toward the starting line.  I admit, I was quite nervous but strangely calm at the same time.  I sat down on the curb next to the coral (#9) that I was assigned to and tried to visualize the race, especially the hills.  Photographers passed me on the left and right taking pictures of groups of runners, all pumped with excitement and dressed in fun costumes.  I was there by myself on the curb, taking it all in.  And I was completely comfortable with it.

With the sun barely rising in the far off distance, I moved to a grassy area and started to stretch.  It reminded me of my high school track days.  I definitely don't feel though like I'm 17.  I warmed up, stretched, drank my last bottle of water and decided I'd better go to the bathroom before the race started.  Me and about 5,000 of my closest friends waited together in line for 35 minutes to take our turn in one of about 15 port-a-potties.  It's a funny thing about runners, no one is embarrassed or thinks twice about bathroom visits.  In fact, I find it to be one of the best places to start up conversations and chat with complete strangers about race strategies.  This experience was no different.  The man in front of me was completing his second P.F. Changs, he shared with me that last year he had completed the full marathon and weighed 100 pounds more, (he weighed over 300 when he finished the full).  After crossing the finish line on the full he caught the running bug and has been participating in many races since.  I told him it was my first half marathon and he reassured me I'd be fine.  I'll never know his name or remember what he looked like, but that conversation, gave me reassurance and motivation that if you set your mind to something, you can accomplish it.

It was soon time to line up and I squeezed into the coral.  To say it felt like we were crammed in was an understatement.  I tried to make my way into the coral further and realized there was no other space.  We were jammed in like sardines and the only good thing was that everyone still had their nice pre-race smell.  We (meaning me and the people sharing shoulder space with me) counted down the minutes and seconds until the gun went off and then.... we waited.

Yep, we waited almost a whole 15 minutes until it was our turn to start.  They wanted to space out the runners and even after waiting that whole time, the course still felt continuously crowded.  With the countdown from 10, I heard the blow horn and finally took off.  Immediately I felt excited.  Gone were the nerves and simply calm and excitement took over.  I told myself over and over not to start out too fast, a common mistake made.  I didn't want to be the one at the end with nothing left to give.  My goal was to complete the race in less than 2 hours.  I knew I had to stay around 9 minute miles to get there, my hope was to be able to go a little bit faster.

My running coach said to break up the race into three parts.  The first 5 miles run it at 1/2 marathon pace, the second 5 miles, run it at 10k pace and the final 5k (3.1 miles) run it like you run track work outs.  While I'm pretty sure, I didn't do those paces, breaking up the race made it seem so much more manageable.

As I passed mile one, I saw a young man, about the age of my future brother-in-law Aaron, who was "running" the race in his wheelchair.  In a standard wheelchair (unlike the racing wheelchairs in their own race), he was using his arm strength and "running" it with us.  I couldn't help but think about Aaron and how he'd probably in an instant sign up to run that race if it means he could walk again.  With watery eyes and motivation to run my best in his honor, I continued on, motivated and moved by what I had just observed.

That was not the last of the water works filling my eyes.  I think that's part of the experience of an endurance event, the stories, the amazing individuals, and the quotes along the way.  I saw a man who had to have been in his 80's running at a pace way too fast for me.  I thought, God, please let me be like him when I'm in my 80's.  I saw one of our finest soldiers dressed in his complete uniform carrying his heavy backpack and running in his army issued boots.  If that wasn't inspiring enough, seeing him receive the pats on the back, the handshakes and the cheers from other runners, made me realize just how great this country is and that there really are a lot of people who realize our freedom doesn't come with a heavy price tag.  I also saw a man, without legs running in blades.  He ran with such grace and smooth stride, I wondered how long it had take him to run with his new "feet" and if he was a runner before.  In my mind I wondered if he had been a soldier and lost his legs when an AED exploded along some road-side in some hostile country.

And then I saw a woman about my age, running at the same pace I was.  I tried to follow right behind her to avoid the continuous dodging of runner traffic.  I had been watching the back of her head when I glanced down at the saying on the back of her shirt.  It read, "In memory of my husband. I run to remember how much he loved to be here."  I cried.  Five years ago I participated in my first marathon in honor of my husband and the battle he was fighting against cancer and here I was running again with a fairytale life.  A healthy husband, three healthy and wonderful children... what more could I ask?  And yet in the same strides next to me, was a woman living my greatest fear.  How blessed I have truly been.

Seeing those sites along the way continued to give me strength and pushed me to continue maintaining my steady pace.  At mile 5, I was re-energized again when I saw Jarrett and the kids.  They came out and had made signs cheering me on.


I was the first one to see them and by the time I got their attention I had already passed them, so it was a really quick exchange of hellos and back to the course I went.  By this point I was averaging a pace of just a few seconds under 9 minute miles, I knew my goal was attainable.


I kept on and pictured in my mind where I'd see them all again.  Mile 6 passed, Mile 7 passed and as we hit mile 8, I knew the challenge was just about to begin.  The course involves a few hills (actually a lot I think) and starting around mile 8 I didn't know I was in for hills for the next 4 miles.  It was NOT fun.  It was NOT easy.  I would NOT like to do it again, but I did it.  And I kept a strong pace.  Sadly I missed Dad and the kids at the second stop, I guess I was mentally into focusing on the task in front of me and the music in my ears was turned up too loudly.

I also found support in the text messages I got along the way.  My family back in Iowa was following me along the course and sending me texts along the way.  While I couldn't respond at the time, they really did help.

As I crossed over mile 12, I knew I had to give it everything I had left and I didn't know if there was much left to give.  I feared I had left it all back on those hills behind me.  I created my own manta and repeated it over and over with every step I took.

I put in the miles.  I put in the time.  I trained for this.  I will finish.  I will finish strong.

Silly I know, but when you it feels like every step is like climbing up the entire Sears Tower, a silly mantra got me through.

Finally I got to the Mill Ave bridge and picked up my pace.  All of a sudden, over top of my music that was turned all the way up, I heard someone screaming my name and shouting, "RUN RUN RUN RUN FASTER FASTER FASTER!"  It was my friend and running partner Michele.  She had come out to help bring me home.  Seeing her took away all the exhaustion and just like a sprinter finishes an 800M race, I dug down deep and pushed through the last of the race.  I crossed the finished line, waiving like a maniac, smiling for the cameras and taking in every moment.  It was just as magical as I remember my first marathon being.

Finally I looked down at my phone and tapped "finished" on my running app.  It read 1 hour and 57 minutes.  Three minutes earlier than my 2 hour goal.  I had done it and crazy enough still had a smile on my face.
My official race day results.


I walked through the finish line area, took my picture with my medal and walked out to try and find Jarrett and the kids.  Thankfully I found them quite quickly and received congratulatory hugs, kisses and cheers.  I could see the kids were excited to see I had done it.  They held up their signs and said, "You did it Mom!" While Isabelle cheered, "Go Mom Go!"  I don't think she knew I was actually done.
We asked a spectator to take a family picture of us and after four separate times we gave up.  I guess he didn't think that little girl standing at my feet was in family... he kept cutting her out of the picture.  SO...
We decided to take a group shot at home!  Isabelle's included in this one!
After enjoying the post race experience, we decided to head for home and get ready for our vacation to Disney the following morning.  The boys asked me several questions about the race, asked to wear my medal and how hard the hills were.  It means a lot to me that they were there to support me.  While I signed up to do this half marathon so I would remain committed to a training schedule and the time I carved out of each and every busy day for myself, I also did this to show the kids if you want something, set a goal and go get it.

It's something I talk about often with the kids, and I figured it was time I started walking the talk.

I don't know what race is next for me, but I can tell you I can't wait to get back out there and run again.  I know I'll have to sign up for something soon, its too easy to put oneself on the back burner when there are many other time obligations.

As I walked with my family to the car, hand in hand with each boy, I thought again about the lady running in memory of her husband and I couldn't help but thank God for the blessings in my life.  And I asked him to bless her.  Everyone is deserving of blessings.
Post race family selfie

Until next time,
Angie

Saturday, January 17, 2015

Ready or not...

Here I come!  At least that's how I'm looking at it.

People talk about living in the moment, but tonight, all I can think about it tomorrow.

Tomorrow morning I will participate in and run the P.F. Changs Rock-N-Roll Half Marathon.  The last time I did something like this was 5 years ago, before I was a mom.

Several months ago I posted a blog post about how I was getting back into running.  In that post I talked about how I had signed up for a half marathon in January and at that time it seemed so far off.  Now here we are, pre-race night.  With butterflies in my stomach and my mind constantly having to reassure me, I'll be fine, I lay out my race clothes and crawl into bed, hoping I get a few hours sleep.

The truth is, I've actually already ran the 13.1 miles.  I did it a couple of weeks before Christmas and when I ran it for the first time, I reached my goal.  My goal was to complete the half in less than 2 hours.  I finished last December in 1 hour, 58 minutes.  While just in the nick of time, it still counts right?

So while I am nervous, I look forward to just having fun.  My goal all along wasn't to just run a half marathon.  The half is just the means that got me to where I am and what I've done.  I started running last May to feel better, to manage my stress more effectively and to do something for myself.  The journey I've taken these past 9 months have been probably one of the best things I've done in the last 5 years.  I think it had made me a more positive person, a better mother and wife and happier.  My running coach, has a saying about running and I think it is so true... "True essence of running is that it's a passageway to another world."

In my case, this is hundred percent true.  I am not the person I was last year at this time.  I'm thankful for the support of my husband, my family, who supports me in getting up at the crack of dawn (actually most mornings before dawn even considers rising), to Jarrett for making sure the kids are awake and getting ready for school on my long run mornings, to my kids who don't think twice that Mom isn't there to wake them up, and who greet me at the door to ask me how far I ran each morning.  To my friend Michele, who encouraged me to join her running group, who met me at 4:30 in the morning to do track work outs and hills.  Who showed me my inner confidence and belief that just because I'm a mom, doesn't mean I can't be a runner too.

When I say these last 9 months have been life-changing, I'm not exaggerating.  Five years ago tonight, I was crawling into bed getting ready to run 26.2 miles and I can honestly say that training wasn't as life changing as this race has been.

While the goal is to run my heart out tomorrow, the truth is, I kind of feel like I've already won my race.  I've put in the time, logged the miles and have the blisters to show... tomorrow is all about having fun and simply enjoying the ride run.


Another quote my coach shared with me that I choose to end with is...
"You are a champion, simply for taking part."

Until next time,
Angie

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Christmas with Nana & Papa

Upon our return from Iowa, we were lucky enough to have Christmas extended.  We were able to get together with Nana, Papa, Uncle Jeremy, Aunt Natalie and the cousins.

It was a lot of fun!

 Nana and Papa were very generous!
 Isabelle was very excited to get some Disney princess socks, a super cute outfit and a Tinkerbell sweatshirt.
 We were excited to see the cousins as we don't get to see them as often as we'd like.
 Aunt Natalie opening her gift!
 The boys got new pajamas, athletic pants and shirts, socks (which they always need) and dry-fit underwear (perhaps what they are most excited about).
 Michael, just about to open his gift too!
 One of the fun things about having cousins about the same age is that they are perfect playmates.  The three girls had fun playing on the playground, being cheerleaders and playing teacher.
 Meanwhile the guys spent time playing football.  At one point it was the kids versus the adults...
 And I think in the end the kids won!  
It was a fun Christmas for all.  Thanks Nana and Papa for the wonderful meal, the generous gifts and the memories to last a lifetime!

Until next time,
Angie

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Meet Elsa....

Someone in our home received A LOT of Frozen items for Christmas.  Not only does she have two Elsa dolls, a Frozen music purse with microphone, but she also has the complete Elsa outfit (from the top of her crown to the sparkles on her shoes).
She is Elsa.

And if you don't believe me, I'll let you take a look.

May I present to you, Queen Elsa of Arendale
This is the costume she insists on wearing every single day.  Yes I mean she has worn that dress every single day since Christmas (actually I take that back, she has missed two days, the two days we were on the road driving back home).  

Today in fact, she insisted on wearing the dress on all of our errands.  From two grocery stores, to Target, Queen Elsa was dressed to the nines!  And man did she get attention.  Lady after lady would say, "Wow, you look so cute!" to which Isabelle would smile, grab her dress and say, "Do you like my dress? I look pretty."  Yes, yes we have a little diva on our hands and yes, I'm completely sure its not going to change anytime soon.

Last Friday, when I was home and cleaning up the house, I heard some shouting from the other room.  It turns out, as I went to investigate, I actually heard singing, not yelling and it was Queen Elsa singing her famous and most popular song.  I couldn't help but record a tiny snip it of her beautiful voice...




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tq97eUb67mQ&feature=youtu.be

Until next time,
Angie

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Iowa part III... Santa Claus has come to town!

On Christmas eve, before bed, the boys got an idea that they would ask Santa to wake them up so they could go on the sleigh with him.  Along with the orange, the cookies, caramel turtles and carrots they left him, they also wrote him a letter..
The letter read,  "Please wake Michael and Gabriel up before you eat your cookies and milk.  I love you and can we please see your reindeer? Pretty please!"
Michael was determined to catch Santa and purposely slept with his arm outstretched so he could catch Santa having a snack.

That night Santa came and left gifts under grandma and grandpa's storybook tree...
In the morning when the boys woke up (everyone in the picture below just woke up), they were super excited to see if Santa had come.  And while excited, they were pretty sad they didn't get to go on Santa's sleigh.
Here they are waiting for their sister to wake up so they could go find their presents...
When they went to their stool to see what Santa had left them, they found a note... (and most of the treats missing).
The note Santa left them said, "Michael and Gabriel, I tried to wake you up, but you were sound asleep.  I hope you like your gifts!   Love Santa
PS:  I'm always watching!
Upon seeing the note, they were even more excited (and perhaps a tiny scared- see Michael's face).  Michael said, "Santa's got to be real, he left us this note.  And do you see how he said he's always watching."
Yep Michael we did see that. Tell us how you feel about that.
And after reading their note, they were off, determined to find their gifts...

Even sleepy head got up to join in the fun.... got to love that morning hair!
Turns out, it didn't take her long to wake up.  Within seconds of seeing Mickey waiting for her under the tree, she was back to her full-of-energy self.  Ready to bounce off the walls.
Gabriel was pretty excited about his gift...
And so was Michael...


The boys ripped right into their presents, while Isabelle took her time, eating almost the entire box of Frozen Fruit Snacks Santa had brought her for the long car ride back home.  While it wasn't the best parenting decision I've ever made, I told myself it was Christmas and to let it slide.
Lots of smiles on Christmas morning...
And movie gifts to watch on the long car ride back home!
Isabelle's excitement continued too as she happen to spot Daisy Duck under the tree.  Now she had two friends to play with.
Here she is asking Grandma where Donald Duck is... guess Santa messed up and forgot another key member of the Mickey Mouse Club House gang.
This is her, "I guess Mickey and Daisy duck will do" face...

While a completely horrible picture of Mom (one I debated about posting many times), Mom got to enjoy Christmas morning with the kiddos too.  Here we are looking at a Pok-e-mon book the boys got trying to find one of the guys they like.

MaeLyn and Aaron spent the night at Grandma and Grandpa's house too as she wanted to see the kid's reaction to their gifts on Christmas morning.  It was nice to have her there too.


Santa was sure nice to the kids bringing them some fun gifts and a note that convinced the boys there must be a real Santa.  Considering those factors, in my mind, that is the definition of a great Christmas.  I'd like the magic of this wonderful holiday to last as long as possible.

Until next time,
Angie

Monday, January 12, 2015

Christmas Part II

In catching up from our trip back home, there were many highlights.  Just one of them was taking a family portrait.  Last time we hired a professional photographer to come in and take our pictures.  This time we didn't think about it til the last minute, so in true my family fashion, we simply took the old family picture off the wall, told everyone to stand where they were standing in the last picture and we built a tripod for the camera to set on. Then we set the timer and I ran back to the steps and pretended to pose just as the flash went off.  

Without having some one to check it, I was pretty impressed with how it turned out. 

You may notice we have a very special little guy in the picture.  My sister and her husband are on the wonderful journey of growing their family (the old fashion way and hopefully through adoption too).  They (actually we) are hoping and praying that cute little baby she's holding, (yes, the one whose identity we have hidden), may some day be theirs.  Until then, we will keep sending prayers to God that he will be forever theirs.  And because they like a challenge, they will also be welcoming their daughter (Meg's got a baby belly under the other baby) this spring.  So exciting!

Isabelle had a lot of fun playing with everyone.  Here she and Grandpa Ray were playing with her blanket.  
Here's uncle Adam helping me test out the timing feature of the camera.  Looks like he knew how to get the timing of his smile right on!
MaeLyn and Aaron, posing with Grandpa Ray.  This coming fall we will celebrate their marriage. Yet another exciting time for us to travel back home.
And my brother and his wonderful fiance, Kacee will be getting married in May of this year, while celebrating their big day on a cruise in the spring of 2016.  So many fun things to look forward to, being home at Christmas was so fun as everyone looks forward to what the future brings.
Adam, Daddy and Belle danced the Mickey Mouse Hot Dog Dance.  As you can tell by the huge smile on her face, Isabelle didn't like it at all, NOT

We look forward to the number of kids growing in the coming years for this picture.
Like father, like son...  I love this picture.
Adding in Isabelle and Grandma.  Isabelle is trying to show the grandparents how to vogue.
And another one of the kids.
After taking some family portraits, it was time for the kids to open presents., 

Here Isabelle is opening her Elsa dress from Grandma and Grandpa.  The dress she wears daily and insists that we call her Princess Elsa when she's in it.
Here Adam is very excited about his new Hawkeye gear to have in their house.

Also at Christmas we got to spend time with Great Grandma Dorie.  She was so kind in making us a tasty lunch and giving the kids a nice gift.

They kids were very excited about their packages.  Getting race cars and dollies to play with. I'll let you guess who was excited about what gifts.


On Christmas eve, we went to church.  Here are the kids dressed in their Christmas best.

And we had to get Grandma and Grandpa in a few pictures too.  
Isabelle wasn't excited at all it was Christmas.  :-)  She could hardly contain her excitement.
Wait, as you can see above, she couldn't contain her excitement.  We told her Santa would be coming soon.
And here's a quick family one we got before the kids ripped off their church clothes, jumped into their pj's and got ready for bed.  For the one night in the whole year, the kids were excited for bed.  Santa was on his way and they for sure, didn't want to be missed!

Until next time,
Angie